Well, I'm back, holy crap its been a while since I really thought about getting slim, last say 5 months I've been off and on exercising, more so not exercising at all and eatting really badly most of the time, and I've thrown away two years of hard work within that time, and I'm almost back to 80KG as the scales told me tonight.
Well its a big let down, but I'm not really shocked I guess, my clothes havent been fitting as well the last few weeks, and my eatting is out of hand again. But hopefully I am back for good again, and looking to shead my kilos.
Phil seems very angry at the fact I've put on 6KGs, he seems more not upset but disguested I guess than anything, and even though he seems to try to be positive and supportive for me, he really seems fake about it, because it feels like he just looks at me in disgust and disapointment that he's with such a fat cow. Oh well, get the fuck over it, build a bridge. I'm back into action to try and fix it again. I was 76KG when you met me anyway, I was fat then.
Well I did calorie king for what i ate today, and it wasnt toooooo bad, tomorrow hopefully it will be better. I obviously have to start planning more and being more obsessed with my weight, fitness and health. Here we go!!
MONDAY WEIGHT: 79.8KG (24/08/09)
Monday, August 24, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Its July Already
Ok, so the wedding came and is now gone, i looked good but now am back to my old ways of not going to the gym and not eatting right. And its bloody JULY, when did that happen. I know I must get back onto my exercise and my eatting right routine. But its just not happening and I'm not feeling motivated at all... I havent weighed myself for maybe three weeks, and I dont want to.
I'll tell you what I do want to do, is eat chocolateeeeeeeeeee mmm.
Since last post G is now engaged and her wedding will be in Nov 2010. So theres another wedding maybe I should try and trim up for. So much effort to do it and to keep doing it. I'm not sure i'm ready again...
I'll tell you what I do want to do, is eat chocolateeeeeeeeeee mmm.
Since last post G is now engaged and her wedding will be in Nov 2010. So theres another wedding maybe I should try and trim up for. So much effort to do it and to keep doing it. I'm not sure i'm ready again...
Monday, April 6, 2009
Monday - Week 13: Weigh In (Dear God Are We Here Again)
Dear Fat Diary
Well today was another day at fat camp... erm I mean just normal day to day life. I finished at 4.30 go home piss farted around for a few hours had dinner watched some tv... THEN, something amazing happened whilst I was sitting on the couch.
No I did not get my stomach pumped. I got the "urge" to get off my lazy arse and, heaven forbid - go to the gym.
YES! So off I went, like a good little (erm big) fat girl, I got to the gym, I weighed my fat arse - which by the was is fatter in weight and boy fat this week - and did a good hard work out. WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT! HMMP! Go me.
Some progress, at least its Monday and I've gotten back to it, for a bit. Something is better than the not going I had originally planned earlier today, mmm.Indoor netball is tomorrow, so I'll definatly be going and doing some exercise there - yay. And I hope the rest of the week will be an exercise sucess, I need to get back to it.
Only 12 days to go until the wedding and I've got my dress out on laybuy, I'd just like to feel comfortable in it. That would be great.
I've been looking at some old pics of me and I have changed in my body shape a bit over the last two years, the fat being distributed better. I feel like I'm a lot less fat in the face a least, a little more definded which makes me feel better and a little, dare I say, secure about how I look.
Today was a bad weigh in 75.5kg with 36.2% in body fat. That percent of body fat was where I was in January this year, I have to work harder (or start doing some work at all again) or I'll be going way backwards, and I don't want to end up at the wrong end of the scale I've been working towards. Hmm.
Hope to be a little more controlled... "she says with the bowl of jelly next to her..." put it downnnnnn.
Its a new week, I'm off to a positive start. must stay positive and make the effort to at least go to the gym for a quicky even if I dont feel like it.
MONDAY WEIGHT: 75.5KG (06/04/08)
Well today was another day at fat camp... erm I mean just normal day to day life. I finished at 4.30 go home piss farted around for a few hours had dinner watched some tv... THEN, something amazing happened whilst I was sitting on the couch.
No I did not get my stomach pumped. I got the "urge" to get off my lazy arse and, heaven forbid - go to the gym.
YES! So off I went, like a good little (erm big) fat girl, I got to the gym, I weighed my fat arse - which by the was is fatter in weight and boy fat this week - and did a good hard work out. WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT! HMMP! Go me.
Some progress, at least its Monday and I've gotten back to it, for a bit. Something is better than the not going I had originally planned earlier today, mmm.Indoor netball is tomorrow, so I'll definatly be going and doing some exercise there - yay. And I hope the rest of the week will be an exercise sucess, I need to get back to it.
Only 12 days to go until the wedding and I've got my dress out on laybuy, I'd just like to feel comfortable in it. That would be great.
I've been looking at some old pics of me and I have changed in my body shape a bit over the last two years, the fat being distributed better. I feel like I'm a lot less fat in the face a least, a little more definded which makes me feel better and a little, dare I say, secure about how I look.
Today was a bad weigh in 75.5kg with 36.2% in body fat. That percent of body fat was where I was in January this year, I have to work harder (or start doing some work at all again) or I'll be going way backwards, and I don't want to end up at the wrong end of the scale I've been working towards. Hmm.
Hope to be a little more controlled... "she says with the bowl of jelly next to her..." put it downnnnnn.
Its a new week, I'm off to a positive start. must stay positive and make the effort to at least go to the gym for a quicky even if I dont feel like it.
MONDAY WEIGHT: 75.5KG (06/04/08)
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Wednesday - Week 12: Oh Dear God... Tell Me It Will Be Okay!
Argh!!! So tonight at 7.30 I have weigh in and measurements at the gym, i'm freaked out, I havent done enough in 4 weeks of really work. Mostly because of Phils dads passing, I didn't go for over a week to the gym, half excuse, half couldnt be arse. And now its D-Day.... wish me luck. Hopefully its the same result as mondays weigh in. I'd be ok with that *worries*
MONDAY WEIGHT: 74.9KG (30/03/08)
MONDAY WEIGHT: 74.9KG (30/03/08)
Monday, March 30, 2009
Monday - Week 12: Weigh In
So I got off my arse this evening and went to the gym after work, finally after a week of nothing, the only exercise being netball.
But I haven't changed much, I'm at 74.9KG with less body fat at 32.8% which is really good.
I have my measurements being taken on Wednesday with my trainer and she'll review with me how I'm going with her new program. Will be interesting to see if I've changed anything, hopefully just a slight change in the right direction would be good. :) Here's hoping.
At least now the squats didn't make me want to cut off my legs the next day like the first time I did them!
In other matters, Phil hasnt gotten paid, so I've been really worried about the house if they don't pay him on wednesday like they said they will (a WEEK after he should have been paid) I will freak out cause we wont have money to pay the house... and I don't like the fact that for some "REASON" they couldn't pay anyone... what the ****? Hmm, seems sus to me.
The wedding event is coming up so fast. I don't think there's anyway I'll reach 69KG for it, I think I'll be lucky to crack 73KG in two weeks. But I would love to lose two kilos in two weeks, its possible, but I don't know that I feel that motivated at the moment.
I mean I'm going to the gym but still everything feels out of wack and not in the motivational mind.
S and I plan to hang out Sunday at DJs for a make over, hopefully I have some money, if not I'm sure we can just hang out at the shops and be silly.
I can't believe it's almost April. Scary...
MONDAY WEIGHT: 74.9KG (30/03/08)
But I haven't changed much, I'm at 74.9KG with less body fat at 32.8% which is really good.
I have my measurements being taken on Wednesday with my trainer and she'll review with me how I'm going with her new program. Will be interesting to see if I've changed anything, hopefully just a slight change in the right direction would be good. :) Here's hoping.
At least now the squats didn't make me want to cut off my legs the next day like the first time I did them!
In other matters, Phil hasnt gotten paid, so I've been really worried about the house if they don't pay him on wednesday like they said they will (a WEEK after he should have been paid) I will freak out cause we wont have money to pay the house... and I don't like the fact that for some "REASON" they couldn't pay anyone... what the ****? Hmm, seems sus to me.
The wedding event is coming up so fast. I don't think there's anyway I'll reach 69KG for it, I think I'll be lucky to crack 73KG in two weeks. But I would love to lose two kilos in two weeks, its possible, but I don't know that I feel that motivated at the moment.
I mean I'm going to the gym but still everything feels out of wack and not in the motivational mind.
S and I plan to hang out Sunday at DJs for a make over, hopefully I have some money, if not I'm sure we can just hang out at the shops and be silly.
I can't believe it's almost April. Scary...
MONDAY WEIGHT: 74.9KG (30/03/08)
Monday, March 23, 2009
Monday - Week 11: A Not Weigh In
Well I didnt weigh in today cause I havent gone to the gym. Lets just say - SAY NO to fat shakes... well at least for me and my bad digestive system, didnt handle them well so had to go to emergency for some *ahem* ..help.
Moving along... like my bowels are now lol
I shall weigh in tomorrow instead and as of sunday i was back on real food :)
Saturday night for the hens night was the most fun i have had in years... sad for some, but its the truth for me. Fan-F***ing-Tastic.
And one of the great things was, I felt really good, really really really good about myself and I look at the photos and I'm not in horror of how I look for once. Yes, there are things that I still need to keep working on, but dare I say I'm comfortable with the way I look. It feels great it really does. :) :) :)!!!
G and I maybe looking into doin some work together soon, she does graphic design and I do webpages, so with her design and my coding we are thinking about it, seeing how one project does first and then going to go from there. should be good :)
anyway, i better go. feeling good for what feels like its been a long time. Heres to tomorrow! cheers
Moving along... like my bowels are now lol
I shall weigh in tomorrow instead and as of sunday i was back on real food :)
Saturday night for the hens night was the most fun i have had in years... sad for some, but its the truth for me. Fan-F***ing-Tastic.
And one of the great things was, I felt really good, really really really good about myself and I look at the photos and I'm not in horror of how I look for once. Yes, there are things that I still need to keep working on, but dare I say I'm comfortable with the way I look. It feels great it really does. :) :) :)!!!
G and I maybe looking into doin some work together soon, she does graphic design and I do webpages, so with her design and my coding we are thinking about it, seeing how one project does first and then going to go from there. should be good :)
anyway, i better go. feeling good for what feels like its been a long time. Heres to tomorrow! cheers
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Sunday - Week 10: 34 Days, & Counting
Yes well week 9 had skipped all diary entry because of the horridness of the entire week. In review birthday sucked so much tears were involved. So much god damn crying this year. I may rename this year, the year of the tear, hmm if the shoe fits.
So. Yesterday was 5 weeks to the day of the upcoming get skinny for event, and I threw out my whole non-belief system in fat shakes, and decided to go on them. Why oh why do I somehow believe now these will work for me? Who god damn knows, but I know that the last few weeks I've been eatting so shit that a few shakes would probably do me the world of good, if not for loosing weight at least for a detox. So I have started them and I dont care what anyone else says, they still leave me feeling hungry... *sigh*
Anyway I found a dress for the night out on saturday with the girls, had to wear pink, who would have thought finding a dress in pink would be so hard! But after searching all yesterday with G and M at Erina, and then my searching today at Charlestown I found a dress there on sale for $30 down from $89... bargin. So I got some accessories and I'm all set :) I can't wait for a good night out, was looking forward to R's birthday down in sydney but that all turned to shit, so hopefully this will be a great night out.
So. Yesterday was 5 weeks to the day of the upcoming get skinny for event, and I threw out my whole non-belief system in fat shakes, and decided to go on them. Why oh why do I somehow believe now these will work for me? Who god damn knows, but I know that the last few weeks I've been eatting so shit that a few shakes would probably do me the world of good, if not for loosing weight at least for a detox. So I have started them and I dont care what anyone else says, they still leave me feeling hungry... *sigh*
Anyway I found a dress for the night out on saturday with the girls, had to wear pink, who would have thought finding a dress in pink would be so hard! But after searching all yesterday with G and M at Erina, and then my searching today at Charlestown I found a dress there on sale for $30 down from $89... bargin. So I got some accessories and I'm all set :) I can't wait for a good night out, was looking forward to R's birthday down in sydney but that all turned to shit, so hopefully this will be a great night out.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Week 8 - Wednesday: I'm Here... Just!
Ok. So I've been off the fat camp wagon. I have been feeling depressed, unmotived and all the above. Lots of reasons, none of which I wish to post about.
Today I got my weight, measurements and a new program done.
Weight is back up to 76.4... goody :(
Body Fat is up 1%... dum dum dummmmm :(
But!
Waist and Hip Girth are down. THANK GOD FOR SOMETHING.
Sure for the last two weeks I haven't done much at all, if anything I've been eatting crap sabotaging my earlier efforts.
Tonight my trainer took me through a new program which she made for me, mostly for arms and tummy, as per my request! I went through it tonight, and damn its a lot harder than my last program ... I guess thats the point. I'm a but pumped at doing something new, so fingers crossed this will bring me back up to caring about my weight and fitness. I need to get my body fat under 30%. So I have four weeks until my next program review with her, and I hope to get my body fat down to at least 31-30, so 3% to loose. Which is very possible. I just have to buckle down again and not piss fart around like I've been doing lately.
Plus the wedding is only 6 weeks away... dear god. I don't want too look terrible, I want to be proud of what I look like, and how much I worked for it.
Tomorrow will be a better day. I will be motivated!! I WILLLLLL DAMMMMN ME!!! No more excuses. I'll be 25 on monday, christ, I dont want to be 25. f*** me.
I think I gotta keep reading my Dr Phil book.... hmmm.
Tonights weigh in: 76.4KG
MONDAY WEIGHT: (75.7KG 02/03/08)
Today I got my weight, measurements and a new program done.
Weight is back up to 76.4... goody :(
Body Fat is up 1%... dum dum dummmmm :(
But!
Waist and Hip Girth are down. THANK GOD FOR SOMETHING.
Sure for the last two weeks I haven't done much at all, if anything I've been eatting crap sabotaging my earlier efforts.
Tonight my trainer took me through a new program which she made for me, mostly for arms and tummy, as per my request! I went through it tonight, and damn its a lot harder than my last program ... I guess thats the point. I'm a but pumped at doing something new, so fingers crossed this will bring me back up to caring about my weight and fitness. I need to get my body fat under 30%. So I have four weeks until my next program review with her, and I hope to get my body fat down to at least 31-30, so 3% to loose. Which is very possible. I just have to buckle down again and not piss fart around like I've been doing lately.
Plus the wedding is only 6 weeks away... dear god. I don't want too look terrible, I want to be proud of what I look like, and how much I worked for it.
Tomorrow will be a better day. I will be motivated!! I WILLLLLL DAMMMMN ME!!! No more excuses. I'll be 25 on monday, christ, I dont want to be 25. f*** me.
I think I gotta keep reading my Dr Phil book.... hmmm.
Tonights weigh in: 76.4KG
MONDAY WEIGHT: (75.7KG 02/03/08)
Monday, February 23, 2009
Monday - Week 7: Weigh In
Only 7 more weigh ins to go. Holy Crap Hey!
Well there is good news today... well sort of. I though from my 74.4KG I would sky rocket (mostly because of the fatty and bad weekend I had) but it only rose by 500g. So I'm pleased to post that I weigh as of 5PM this afternoon 74.9KG.
This weeks task, to get back to 74.4KG.
Tomorrow I have my measurements and program review to be done at 6.30PM, I'm sorta excited about it, interested in what new routine they'll put me on, and a little afraid that I haven't lost any centimeters... fingers crossed aye.
My calorie king pal and I are keeping in touch more, which is great. Shes getting into her exercise more. It's good to talk to someone who is in the same boat as you.
Low fat jelly tomorrow night, should be interesting to see what its like. Hopefully it doesn't kill me LOL
My food menu is set for tomorrow, and I can't wait to have a grilled cheese and Vegemite sandwich... I know that sounds lame but, so what!
Birthday cake on Thursday at work, so I must add that into the calorie king daily meal plans.
THURSDAY WEIGHT: (74.9KG 23/02/08)
Well there is good news today... well sort of. I though from my 74.4KG I would sky rocket (mostly because of the fatty and bad weekend I had) but it only rose by 500g. So I'm pleased to post that I weigh as of 5PM this afternoon 74.9KG.
This weeks task, to get back to 74.4KG.
Tomorrow I have my measurements and program review to be done at 6.30PM, I'm sorta excited about it, interested in what new routine they'll put me on, and a little afraid that I haven't lost any centimeters... fingers crossed aye.
My calorie king pal and I are keeping in touch more, which is great. Shes getting into her exercise more. It's good to talk to someone who is in the same boat as you.
Low fat jelly tomorrow night, should be interesting to see what its like. Hopefully it doesn't kill me LOL
My food menu is set for tomorrow, and I can't wait to have a grilled cheese and Vegemite sandwich... I know that sounds lame but, so what!
Birthday cake on Thursday at work, so I must add that into the calorie king daily meal plans.
THURSDAY WEIGHT: (74.9KG 23/02/08)
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Sunday - Week 7: Motivation ... Check
Motivation is high today, after trying on size 14 dresses in the miss shop in myers and only JJJJJJUUUUUSSSSTTTT being able to squeeze into them, looking like a beached whale.
So I found the dress for the upcoming wedding, which is now on laybuy, but I did feel a bit fat in it. "Well that's because you are" my internal thoughts say. So motivation is set to high at the moment, I want to be looking trim in that dress and not so much the pregnant look that I've been fashioning for years.
Trim and Thin.... Only 8 weeks to go as of yesterday. Maybe I should start a count down, I think I need to remember it's not that far away.
Went to Reanan's birthday alone on Saturday waiting around for half an hour because I was too early.
I had major issues and left so I wouldn't:
(A) Cry at the party because I have issues at home and with myself.
(B) Looked like a cats arse all night, being a party pooper, because I didn't feel like I was going to have a good time, I didn't feel like singing :(
(C) Having to deal with the iciness from a friend which I couldn't take, although she's probably not friends with me anymore. What do I know.
(D) Feeling like I don't fit in anymore. I don't hang out with these people anymore because it is a long way to travel and most of the time I don't have money to go do things like everyone else can. I didn't even have the money for a drink last night.. not even a f**king soft drink.
Anyway, enough ranting and sobbing over my 'drama' that I over do to myself. At least I didn't screw up her night.
I'm off to visit J this weekend, Saturday we will be hanging out, I can't wait to see him, should be a blast from the past. I can't wait to see is home too, looked nice in the pictures, love french doors (jealous).
Until tomorrow's weigh in... fingers crossed.
THURSDAY WEIGHT: (74.4KG 19/02/08)
So I found the dress for the upcoming wedding, which is now on laybuy, but I did feel a bit fat in it. "Well that's because you are" my internal thoughts say. So motivation is set to high at the moment, I want to be looking trim in that dress and not so much the pregnant look that I've been fashioning for years.
Trim and Thin.... Only 8 weeks to go as of yesterday. Maybe I should start a count down, I think I need to remember it's not that far away.
Went to Reanan's birthday alone on Saturday waiting around for half an hour because I was too early.
I had major issues and left so I wouldn't:
(A) Cry at the party because I have issues at home and with myself.
(B) Looked like a cats arse all night, being a party pooper, because I didn't feel like I was going to have a good time, I didn't feel like singing :(
(C) Having to deal with the iciness from a friend which I couldn't take, although she's probably not friends with me anymore. What do I know.
(D) Feeling like I don't fit in anymore. I don't hang out with these people anymore because it is a long way to travel and most of the time I don't have money to go do things like everyone else can. I didn't even have the money for a drink last night.. not even a f**king soft drink.
Anyway, enough ranting and sobbing over my 'drama' that I over do to myself. At least I didn't screw up her night.
I'm off to visit J this weekend, Saturday we will be hanging out, I can't wait to see him, should be a blast from the past. I can't wait to see is home too, looked nice in the pictures, love french doors (jealous).
Until tomorrow's weigh in... fingers crossed.
THURSDAY WEIGHT: (74.4KG 19/02/08)
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Saturday - Week 7: Going The Right Way
So I weighed in on Thursday this week because Monday I wasn't feeling well and I hadn't been to the gym all week. I weighed in at an amazing 74.4KG! I haven't been that light for at least three years or more. Now this week on Monday I will get back into everything, I really want to start working harder again. And this week I'm not really so much worried about loosing weight, I just want to stay at 74KG for a bit, just maintain it. Because I have a feeling that weight loss is because I was sick, so figures crossed I didn't go up too much this week, keep it to 74KG pleeeeease.
Off tonight to Reanan's birthday party, hopefully Phil will get home earlier so we wont be too late. Should be a good night. Tomorrow I want to show Phil a dress I saw for the upcoming wedding we're attending, hopefully he'll think its suitable, its the only one I've seen that's half decent. Plus it costs a lot, so well see.
I was watching the biggest loser on tellie and they all had dream outfits that one day they wish to fit into. So I am thinking maybe I should look for one, and maybe laybuy it or at least have one as a bit of motivation. Well, see. I happy that I'm going the right way weight wise. Not long to go till 69KG...
THURSDAY WEIGHT: (74.4KG 19/02/08)
Off tonight to Reanan's birthday party, hopefully Phil will get home earlier so we wont be too late. Should be a good night. Tomorrow I want to show Phil a dress I saw for the upcoming wedding we're attending, hopefully he'll think its suitable, its the only one I've seen that's half decent. Plus it costs a lot, so well see.
I was watching the biggest loser on tellie and they all had dream outfits that one day they wish to fit into. So I am thinking maybe I should look for one, and maybe laybuy it or at least have one as a bit of motivation. Well, see. I happy that I'm going the right way weight wise. Not long to go till 69KG...
THURSDAY WEIGHT: (74.4KG 19/02/08)
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Thursday - Week 6: Getting Those Habits Right
Its Thursday and for three days I've been rather good... until today. Today I had mcdonalds for lunch and it looks like it thew everything out. I should have done an hour in the gym but I only did thirty minutes... oh I will learn.
Although when going shopping this evening I am starting to look at the calories more in things and realise what is good and bad. And if I am to have something it needs to be the light alternative... WHICH seems to always be the more expensive choice too. No wonder everyone gets fat, all the cheap stuff is so god damn high in calories.
Going well, feeling better about weigh loss this week, my buddy from calorie king seems to be missing in action, the montly challenge of 2 kilos in 1 month seems it may be out the window, I dont know she hasnt checked in since the weekend, :S did I lose her in cyber space? I hope she comes back...
Going to Brisbane soon for the three year anniversary... god has it been that long. Only four more to break the record...anyway, I cant wait to get there, should be a good little get away!
Visiting my mum tomorrow, shes been doing it tuff lately, hope I can cheer things up a bit. :)
MONDAY WEIGHT: (76.5KG 09/02/08)
Although when going shopping this evening I am starting to look at the calories more in things and realise what is good and bad. And if I am to have something it needs to be the light alternative... WHICH seems to always be the more expensive choice too. No wonder everyone gets fat, all the cheap stuff is so god damn high in calories.
Going well, feeling better about weigh loss this week, my buddy from calorie king seems to be missing in action, the montly challenge of 2 kilos in 1 month seems it may be out the window, I dont know she hasnt checked in since the weekend, :S did I lose her in cyber space? I hope she comes back...
Going to Brisbane soon for the three year anniversary... god has it been that long. Only four more to break the record...anyway, I cant wait to get there, should be a good little get away!
Visiting my mum tomorrow, shes been doing it tuff lately, hope I can cheer things up a bit. :)
MONDAY WEIGHT: (76.5KG 09/02/08)
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Tuesday - Week 6: Hello Motivation!! Where YOU been?
Sunday night I felt very motivated, dunno if it had to do with watching the biggest loser weigh in, hearing that my calories should be limited to 1100 or that fact that monday was my weigh in and didnt want to end up as a beached whale on the scales.
But yay... weighed in at 76.5KG yesterday evening!
And have now limited my calories to 1100 a day, went well yesterday and have my plan outlined for today.
Gym afterwork and also netball at 8 tonight, cant wait. The team has to think of a new name for next season, I'm going to suggest "Flames"... we wear red!
Going to visit my mother on friday and then saturday looking for a dress to wear to an upcoming wedding.
Going to brisbane soon, cant wait for the weekend away, must think of things to do!
Gonna Shine in 09. This is going to be a good week. I can feel it!
MONDAY WEIGHT: (76.5KG 09/02/08)
But yay... weighed in at 76.5KG yesterday evening!
And have now limited my calories to 1100 a day, went well yesterday and have my plan outlined for today.
Gym afterwork and also netball at 8 tonight, cant wait. The team has to think of a new name for next season, I'm going to suggest "Flames"... we wear red!
Going to visit my mother on friday and then saturday looking for a dress to wear to an upcoming wedding.
Going to brisbane soon, cant wait for the weekend away, must think of things to do!
Gonna Shine in 09. This is going to be a good week. I can feel it!
MONDAY WEIGHT: (76.5KG 09/02/08)
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Wednesday - Week 5: Motivation Zero
This is bull shit.. I hate not being able to eat stuff i love. and when I do here come those huge kilos youre trying to avoid. absolute crappppppp. Motivation today ZERO.
Phil was good enough to look at calorie king for a low fat tasty dinner, which as per most of the low fat crap lately was eatable but didnt have me craving seconds... is that why good healthy food doesnt give you cravings so you dont eat too much of the good food therefore making it bad food because it puts on weight?
Bugger me...
Got made captin of the netball team for next season. I dont think anyone else could be bothered... oh well, something new.
I strained my right side of my kneck last night a netball, therefore didnt go to the gym today, it feels a bit better, and i went for a walk around the neighbourhood with Phil after dinner. So thats 30mins of exercise at least. Tomorrow I hope my kneck will be better and ill be back at the gym, ill have to go to the gym sat now.
Plans to visit Sal on saturday we havent seen each other since maybe March of 08 but seem to be good buddies from the old days of Tru Blue Netball team.
MONDAY WEIGHT: (77.7KG 02/02/08)
Phil was good enough to look at calorie king for a low fat tasty dinner, which as per most of the low fat crap lately was eatable but didnt have me craving seconds... is that why good healthy food doesnt give you cravings so you dont eat too much of the good food therefore making it bad food because it puts on weight?
Bugger me...
Got made captin of the netball team for next season. I dont think anyone else could be bothered... oh well, something new.
I strained my right side of my kneck last night a netball, therefore didnt go to the gym today, it feels a bit better, and i went for a walk around the neighbourhood with Phil after dinner. So thats 30mins of exercise at least. Tomorrow I hope my kneck will be better and ill be back at the gym, ill have to go to the gym sat now.
Plans to visit Sal on saturday we havent seen each other since maybe March of 08 but seem to be good buddies from the old days of Tru Blue Netball team.
MONDAY WEIGHT: (77.7KG 02/02/08)
Monday, February 2, 2009
Monday - Week 5: Weigh In
77.7KG.... no I dont want to talk about it
MONDAY WEIGHT: 77.7KG (02/02/08)
MONDAY WEIGHT: 77.7KG (02/02/08)
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Wednesday - Week 4: Body Fat Lookin Good
So I had a weigh in today still 76 KG but what has shown up since week 1 on thursday was that my body fat percentage has come down from 36.4 to 33.4 percent. so this is great!! three percent in four weeks, I'm going the right way with that, and last year compaired to this year my arm, chest, waist, hip and thigh measurements have all come down, more great news. The instructor said to come back in four weeks and we'd do the measurements again and redo over my whole program which she could go through with me. good news, i sort of needed that little pick me up cause i was beginning to feel a bit down that i hadnt lost weight but at least ive lost body fat which is important.
I should be in the low twentys for body fat. When i started i was at 38.2 so now down to 33.4 its great :) i sure will shine in 09 !
MONDAY WEIGHT: 76.3KG (26/01/08)
I should be in the low twentys for body fat. When i started i was at 38.2 so now down to 33.4 its great :) i sure will shine in 09 !
MONDAY WEIGHT: 76.3KG (26/01/08)
Monday, January 26, 2009
Monday - Week 4: Weigh In
Oh gawd damn, so I'm the same weight as last week.... hmm 76.3KG, not good but not all together TERRIBLE. I've been bad today, had pancakes, mmmmm. oh well, can only start a new week and see what it brings, at least Ive gotten into the habit of exercising 5 times a week, even on the public holiday ive gone to the gym :D yay go me.
MONDAY WEIGHT: 76.3KG (26/01/08)
MONDAY WEIGHT: 76.3KG (26/01/08)
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Gawwwwd Its Hot
Why is it so hot? I dont want to do anything because of the heat, I smell even though I've had two showers today already... why is this so *sigh* sooo hot, cant be bother to even do anything thats cool.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Wednesday - Week 3: Not Planning = Over Calories
Well as I have found out by looking at my food diary for Sunday, Monday and Tonight... When my food menu isnt planned thats when I tend to go way over the calories. Sure its all well and good in the morning and in the day but in the dinner part of the day (when I should probably be eatting the LEAST,) I tend to eat the most. This I also found was due to social eatting, I didnt control myself when we went out for dinner on Monday and tonight when we had indian for dinner my portion size was quite HUGE and I didnt realise as to how much fat was in it and how many calories it would take up... but then again I didnt serve the dinner, but then again at the same time NO ONE MADDDDDE YOU EAT IT.... hmmm true. I need to get out of the habit of just eatting because its there and because its yummy.
Moving forward. I have been good and been to the gym every day this week so far, and I have planned and printed out my menu for tomorrow. So tomorrow will be a good day :) back on the band wagon, and this weekend I have no plans so I'll have more time to think about week 4, plan my menus and plan my goals for the week ahead.
They way I've been eatting the last few days always going over my calories and not eatting the healthy food all the time, I dont know that I will loose a whole KG this week, I hope to, but I would be please with a half KG. So my hopes for monday weigh in will be 75.8, boy oh boy I hope I havent put any weight on! Oh god, I must must must be good the rest of the week, since this week has so far been mostly bad, half bad half good should be ok....? maybe. I need to go full force or as I know, it wont work and I'll be upset.
On a brighter note, at netball last night (we lost by 1, and we only had 4 players they had 5), I felt more fitter than I had before, being able to run around a lot more and not be so tired, dont get me wrong I was tired just not AS tired as normal. And I was playing again 15/16 year olds, and I had to man two players most of the time, C and GA.... :) Im happy with that result at least this week.
MONDAY WEIGHT: 76.3KG (19/01/08)
Moving forward. I have been good and been to the gym every day this week so far, and I have planned and printed out my menu for tomorrow. So tomorrow will be a good day :) back on the band wagon, and this weekend I have no plans so I'll have more time to think about week 4, plan my menus and plan my goals for the week ahead.
They way I've been eatting the last few days always going over my calories and not eatting the healthy food all the time, I dont know that I will loose a whole KG this week, I hope to, but I would be please with a half KG. So my hopes for monday weigh in will be 75.8, boy oh boy I hope I havent put any weight on! Oh god, I must must must be good the rest of the week, since this week has so far been mostly bad, half bad half good should be ok....? maybe. I need to go full force or as I know, it wont work and I'll be upset.
On a brighter note, at netball last night (we lost by 1, and we only had 4 players they had 5), I felt more fitter than I had before, being able to run around a lot more and not be so tired, dont get me wrong I was tired just not AS tired as normal. And I was playing again 15/16 year olds, and I had to man two players most of the time, C and GA.... :) Im happy with that result at least this week.
MONDAY WEIGHT: 76.3KG (19/01/08)
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Tuesday - Week 3: I'm Still Working On It
Im still here I havent gone off the diet train! I just havent had time to post.
Well yesterday at Monday Weigh In was a sucess, I have lost 1.4 KG in week two, thank god for that all that hard work paid off last week.
Sunday and Yesterday I havent eatten so great I've gone over my calories on both days... but today we start a new again! And instead of going to the gym this morning I filled out my calorie king meal plan and I'm set for today, I have about 700 calories left for dinner tonight... what ever we may have.
I plan on going to the gym tonight after work at six. Come home at 6.45 have dinner, and then leave for netball at 8... its all set. Now I just gotta have breaky this morning, get my gym clothes ready and pack my lunch and then we are off for another few days of sucessful weight loss! Hooray. I want to loose a one kilo this week. I weighed in at 76.3 KG on Monday (yesterday)... go me. So I would LOVEEEEE to be 75.3 KG on next monday, that would be so awesome that would be the lowest I've been in like three years, I'm almost there come on meeeeeee, keep it up.
MONDAY WEIGHT: 76.3KG (19/01/08)
Well yesterday at Monday Weigh In was a sucess, I have lost 1.4 KG in week two, thank god for that all that hard work paid off last week.
Sunday and Yesterday I havent eatten so great I've gone over my calories on both days... but today we start a new again! And instead of going to the gym this morning I filled out my calorie king meal plan and I'm set for today, I have about 700 calories left for dinner tonight... what ever we may have.
I plan on going to the gym tonight after work at six. Come home at 6.45 have dinner, and then leave for netball at 8... its all set. Now I just gotta have breaky this morning, get my gym clothes ready and pack my lunch and then we are off for another few days of sucessful weight loss! Hooray. I want to loose a one kilo this week. I weighed in at 76.3 KG on Monday (yesterday)... go me. So I would LOVEEEEE to be 75.3 KG on next monday, that would be so awesome that would be the lowest I've been in like three years, I'm almost there come on meeeeeee, keep it up.
MONDAY WEIGHT: 76.3KG (19/01/08)
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Wednesday - Week 2: So So Tired
Well this morning was a little taste of hell, so so very very tired, maybe it was due to eatting differently or maybe it was due to gym and late night netball game then late to bed, but gosh I am really tired even now, so I'll plan my food tomorrow, arrange my breakfast and then head to bed I think.
Last night a netball we won 16 to 12 which was great. Today I didnt have time in the morning to get my gym clothes together because I was tired and dawdled, so I came home straight after work, and changed into my gym clothes and went and did my cardio and weights, i came home and ate as per my meal plan, and even with Phil having pizza... I didnt eat a bite, and I wanted to, but I want to scales to say nicer things to me on monday more, plus I've eaten well Tuesday and Today so I dont want to ruin it.
When I was at the gym I was very egar to step on the scales to see if I had lost anything, but I thought it may do me more harm than good, and I know you should only weigh yourself once a week... but I want to know if what I'm doing is helping and making me go in the right direction... but I guess the truth is I do know its helping, I just guess I want a quick fix, which as I and everyone else in the world knows, there is none....
Out door netball starting up soon, I have to decide who to join, hopefully the new team this year will practise or maybe do indoor for practise like the old team used to!
Off to plan tomorrows menu. I'm feeling quite pleased with myself :)
MONDAY WEIGHT: 77.7KG (12/01/08)
Last night a netball we won 16 to 12 which was great. Today I didnt have time in the morning to get my gym clothes together because I was tired and dawdled, so I came home straight after work, and changed into my gym clothes and went and did my cardio and weights, i came home and ate as per my meal plan, and even with Phil having pizza... I didnt eat a bite, and I wanted to, but I want to scales to say nicer things to me on monday more, plus I've eaten well Tuesday and Today so I dont want to ruin it.
When I was at the gym I was very egar to step on the scales to see if I had lost anything, but I thought it may do me more harm than good, and I know you should only weigh yourself once a week... but I want to know if what I'm doing is helping and making me go in the right direction... but I guess the truth is I do know its helping, I just guess I want a quick fix, which as I and everyone else in the world knows, there is none....
Out door netball starting up soon, I have to decide who to join, hopefully the new team this year will practise or maybe do indoor for practise like the old team used to!
Off to plan tomorrows menu. I'm feeling quite pleased with myself :)
MONDAY WEIGHT: 77.7KG (12/01/08)
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Tuesday - Week 2: Eatting Right
Ok, so its week two... and after yesterday terrible weigh in, I have reverted back to couting calories... they say you dont need to but sometimes if i dont plan what im going to eat i eat everything and anything and then whatevers left around!!
So todays menu I have stuck to, seems like these a lot to eat today and not enough time to do it in.
I've counted my calories and made my program for wednesday too, which is quite doable, today was easy, figures crossed tomorrow will be as well.
Going well with going to the gym its starting to become a good habit, just gotta eat dinner now, then off to do some more fun exercise... NETBALL :)
MONDAY WEIGHT: 77.7KG (12/01/08)
So todays menu I have stuck to, seems like these a lot to eat today and not enough time to do it in.
I've counted my calories and made my program for wednesday too, which is quite doable, today was easy, figures crossed tomorrow will be as well.
Going well with going to the gym its starting to become a good habit, just gotta eat dinner now, then off to do some more fun exercise... NETBALL :)
MONDAY WEIGHT: 77.7KG (12/01/08)
Monday, January 12, 2009
Monday - Week 2: Weigh In
ARRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHH No, its not fair, I weighed in today at 77.7 KG FREAKING HELL GRRRRRRRR
I'm supposed to be loosing weight not gaining it!!! *panic*
So with that I could do one of two things, hit the chocolate ilse or avoid it like the plague and try better. So I took door number two and bought some more healthy food. Now I have more of a plan to try and eat better this week... well I hope to, I'm going to try and use Calorie King again whilst keeping up my exercise - figures crossed. I want to be down to 2.4KGs by next weigh in on monday so I have a week to loose over two KGs.... *Sigh* heres hoping most of it is retention from my period (eww, i know i just freaked a few people out, mostly men)
MONDAY WEIGHT: 77.7KG (12/01/08)
I'm supposed to be loosing weight not gaining it!!! *panic*
So with that I could do one of two things, hit the chocolate ilse or avoid it like the plague and try better. So I took door number two and bought some more healthy food. Now I have more of a plan to try and eat better this week... well I hope to, I'm going to try and use Calorie King again whilst keeping up my exercise - figures crossed. I want to be down to 2.4KGs by next weigh in on monday so I have a week to loose over two KGs.... *Sigh* heres hoping most of it is retention from my period (eww, i know i just freaked a few people out, mostly men)
MONDAY WEIGHT: 77.7KG (12/01/08)
Friday, January 9, 2009
End of Week One Review & Week 2 Goals
Well it is the end of the week and I have managed to attend the gym four times this week. I'd like to have made it to five but considering, I am quite pleased with four times a week.
Mon - Cardio & Weights
Tue - Cardio
Thu - Cardio & Weights
Fri - Carido
Tomorrow is the start of another week for me (I'm couting Saturday as start days now), and my hope is to acheive five days of gym attendance. Also I want to stop eatting potatos for just this week (e.g. Chips), and want to have a daily goal of drinking 2L of water.
Week 2 of 2009 Goals
Goal Gym Work: Attend 5 times @ 30mins min
Goal Eatting Habits: No potatoes
Goal Drinking Habits: 2L water daily
Goal Weigh In (Monday 12/01/09): 75.9kg
Goal Weight Loss This Week: 0.5kg
All of week 2's goals I believe are achieveable, I may not make weigh in on Mondays goal, but I can hope and review at the end of the week and restructure the KGs goal if need be... but come on it is only .5kg from last weigh in.... PLEASEEEEE
MONDAY WEIGHT: 76.4KG (05/01/09)
Mon - Cardio & Weights
Tue - Cardio
Thu - Cardio & Weights
Fri - Carido
Tomorrow is the start of another week for me (I'm couting Saturday as start days now), and my hope is to acheive five days of gym attendance. Also I want to stop eatting potatos for just this week (e.g. Chips), and want to have a daily goal of drinking 2L of water.
Week 2 of 2009 Goals
Goal Gym Work: Attend 5 times @ 30mins min
Goal Eatting Habits: No potatoes
Goal Drinking Habits: 2L water daily
Goal Weigh In (Monday 12/01/09): 75.9kg
Goal Weight Loss This Week: 0.5kg
All of week 2's goals I believe are achieveable, I may not make weigh in on Mondays goal, but I can hope and review at the end of the week and restructure the KGs goal if need be... but come on it is only .5kg from last weigh in.... PLEASEEEEE
MONDAY WEIGHT: 76.4KG (05/01/09)
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Take Four Million & Two
Yeah so day zero is long gone and I am no lighter. Actually of Monday 05/01/08 I am .2kg heavier. Horray.... BOOOOOOO
A new year though, isnt that how it works, we start a new, things can be better! I say that after trying to be good but then not really trying, I dont know why but I just dont feel like going hard at the moment, i'm in limbo, I've been to the gym, Mon, Tue, and today and also went to netball (missed wednesday) but I dont want to give up everything at the moment, in a sense I still wanna be fat. Or maybe I just wanna be thinner but be able to do it whilest still eatting bad foods (i.e. chocolate, chips etc)
MONDAY WEIGHT: 76.4KG
A new year though, isnt that how it works, we start a new, things can be better! I say that after trying to be good but then not really trying, I dont know why but I just dont feel like going hard at the moment, i'm in limbo, I've been to the gym, Mon, Tue, and today and also went to netball (missed wednesday) but I dont want to give up everything at the moment, in a sense I still wanna be fat. Or maybe I just wanna be thinner but be able to do it whilest still eatting bad foods (i.e. chocolate, chips etc)
MONDAY WEIGHT: 76.4KG
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