Sunday - Week 7: Motivation ... Check

Motivation is high today, after trying on size 14 dresses in the miss shop in myers and only JJJJJJUUUUUSSSSTTTT being able to squeeze into them, looking like a beached whale.
So I found the dress for the upcoming wedding, which is now on laybuy, but I did feel a bit fat in it. "Well that's because you are" my internal thoughts say. So motivation is set to high at the moment, I want to be looking trim in that dress and not so much the pregnant look that I've been fashioning for years.
Trim and Thin.... Only 8 weeks to go as of yesterday. Maybe I should start a count down, I think I need to remember it's not that far away.

Went to Reanan's birthday alone on Saturday waiting around for half an hour because I was too early.
I had major issues and left so I wouldn't:
(A) Cry at the party because I have issues at home and with myself.
(B) Looked like a cats arse all night, being a party pooper, because I didn't feel like I was going to have a good time, I didn't feel like singing :(
(C) Having to deal with the iciness from a friend which I couldn't take, although she's probably not friends with me anymore. What do I know.
(D) Feeling like I don't fit in anymore. I don't hang out with these people anymore because it is a long way to travel and most of the time I don't have money to go do things like everyone else can. I didn't even have the money for a drink last night.. not even a f**king soft drink.

Anyway, enough ranting and sobbing over my 'drama' that I over do to myself. At least I didn't screw up her night.

I'm off to visit J this weekend, Saturday we will be hanging out, I can't wait to see him, should be a blast from the past. I can't wait to see is home too, looked nice in the pictures, love french doors (jealous).

Until tomorrow's weigh in... fingers crossed.


THURSDAY WEIGHT: (74.4KG 19/02/08)